it been quite sometime since i was seen online..
i was bz with work all the time
i just withdraw from the certis cisco offer..
hm.. at first i thought the offer was good since i gt alot of benefits..
but den.. on second thought, i have to work permanent nite shift.. and also i will only be getting $1,300 and that is inclusive of allowance for nite shift.. hm... so was i wrong to actually withdraw?.. i guess i was not..

hm.. i miss all my poly peops.. i miss bitching them haha.. especially jake and addy.. i also miss michie who always have stories to tell haha.. yea xin wei called me a couple of times... hehe i know he miss me alot!! lol! coz he said tat himself haha..!!

now the person i miss the most is wan.. he is always bz wit his "wife" ( his bike la) haha.. i kinda get jealous sometimes.. when ever he went out.. its always wit his wife.. shit him la.!.. but den i dun know if im actually falling for the rite person... but i guess its too early to say.. yea.. wan say he also gt feelings for mie but i told him that we can only be close frens now.. coz ive things to settle and i dun tink im ready for anythink further.. it seems that he really understand.. that was so nice of him... HEARTS <3 him alot!!.. hehe

i jus msg him juz now.. haiz.. still no reply.. i guess he has went to dreamland la.. that sleepy head haha.. gonna get a nag from me 2morrow which he really hates it haha..

k la i wanna slep la..
nite

yea...

i jus came back from work...
yea2 it seems that i gt no life .. everydae i'll be at work and b back late at nite..
been searching for job for quite some time now... sometimes i juz felt like giving up..
its nt easy to find job nowadays..
if u demand too much u cant get the job..
if u didnt have the min. requirements u still cant have the job..
if u dont have the experience... den better not dream that the job will be yrs..
haiz.. its freaking troublesome.. but den i have to be patient..

yea.. i really regretted went for the midnite movie at vivo wit my workmates...
we actually watch the STUPIDEST show ever shown..
its called " Funny Games U.S"
it was supposed to b a serial killer show.. i tot it was gonna b fun..
but we were cheated.. its the crappiest show ever... can u even believe, once the killer is being killed, the other killer can take a remote control to actually rewind so that the killer wont die..
its like wtf?? haha..

k la wanna slip.. nite2

hey..

juz gt back home.. i was from work... den mit up wit wan... yea we talked for a while.. tried to catch up wil times... he gt this gurls problems which i cant help at all haha.. coz i dun know.. i really gt no comments for it haha.. im sorry.. i really cant help u .. as a fren i can only advice.. but its entirely up to u to listen to it or nt......

n again.. half my buns are hurting.. its my muscle!!.. i tink its been stretch too much for 1 dae.. haha.. it was all due to the badminton game i had the other dae. haha.. . the pain is unbearable.. haha.. tu la nani.. nk maen lompat tk ingat limit.. padan muke aku!! haha.

k la i wanna slep..

bye..

YEA..

i really cant explain y im acting dis way... y now??.. y nt sooner?... y now u told me u like other gals?? freakz.. wat do u take me as... when u need someone to talk to u come to me.. if nt den u be gone.. u nvr answer my calls.. it tooks u some time to even reply my msg.. we are nt like wat we used to be... i hate dis... i cant act this way any longer.... I have the heart for U ... but y cant u juz gt tat in ya head... does a gurl willing to listen and lend a shoulder to cry on juz because we are frens??... shuckz... u promised me alot of things.. but den u juz forget bout it...!!.. argh!!! im nt talking to u anymore!!!!... i will try to get u out of my lyfe... argh!!!...

hey...

just got home from work... im dead tired but still i cant sleep ..
Last thursday i went to bugis with khaty... we were finding zul's bdae present ... den as we were walking.. suddenly a person from tony and guy approached us to actually ask if we were free for a hair cut.. at first i was kind of reluctant but den khaty kind of force me to cut my hair.. so i was like okay la y nt i gave it a try...

den we were brought back to the salon... and i was actually kinda shocked to know that the person who gonna cut my hair was nt actually a professional hairstylist.. but actually a student from tony and guy... i was like shit!...and to make things worst... the guy whum supposed to cut my hair doesn't understand any english at aLL..!!.... he was actually from CHINA..!! so i was kind of afraid he's gonna mess up my hair since i cant actually converse wit him.. i only understand a few words that he said.... but den it actually turns out GREAT!.. haha... i must say he may not be the perfect hairstylist but den its actually a good start .Eventhough i had to sit in the salon for at least 1 hour plus haha...

Here's the pic after hair cut...

yea...

im waiting for 7th of April which is 2morrow.. i was looking forward to it.. since its my best dae.. coz its my PAY DAE!!!! lol... BUT!!!!!.. i gt a call from Don this afternoon.. n guess wat.. he said.. " i presumed you will gt yr pay on tuesdae" ... i was like WAT!!! haiz... i wonder y we always gt our pay late...wat are the finance people doin????....Shu*ks...

yea Wan did say "hi" to me on msn... but i kind of gave him a cold reply... i was nt mad at him.. i dun know wats wrong wit me this days.. i've been finding fault wit everyone... it was good enough Gerald knows how to tolarate my temper.. if nt i guess he will also be mad at me like the others who already did... i dun seems to understand myself this days... no one trust me.. no one cares bout mie... sometimes i just feel lonely... some said i should get my a boifren.. lol!.. but i dont tink so ... im kinda happy wit single life but .. i do admit i felt lonely most of the times... haiz.. wat the heck should i do???...

i been doin some thinking lately..
sometimes i just felt as if i was taken for granted..
sometimes i just felt being used ..
sometimes i just felt as if you turned to me when you had probs.. but when u are happy u left me..
sometimes i just felt keeping quiet isnt just the answer to everything....
im sick and tired of being treated this way...
am i invisible to u ...
sometimes i gave a thought to the sweet words that u said ...
but i guess my thought was rite.. u are just saying those things just for the sake for me to hear..
i wonder why are these people born on earth?...

signin off
Nuraaenee